- (via superkaeyen)
Friendship is funny because one day you can be the best of friends and the next you’re barely even talking. People change, grow, some mature others don’t. I have lost so many friends this year and thinking about the vast lost and numbers of people that have left my life I feel like maybe I am changing, more tempermental…less patience. But thinking about it everyone has been doing riducously unforgivable things..not stupid middle and highschool stuff..but flat out trying to hurt me and get a rise out of me. If you do not care about me I do not care about you. The good thing is I know there are friends still here…ones I can count on. Ones who won’t get mad at stupid things everytime I hangout, ones that won’t talk shit behind my back (calling names) when I did nothing harmful at all to even remotely effect that person…some would say stuck up more for this individual than need be and some who betrayed my highest trust in a friend, lied, cheated, and delibratly did something sneaky because they knew I’d be hurt. Sitting here in my room I think to myself…yes I lost many many people this year….burned many many bridges …but at the end of it all I HAVEN’T done ANYTHING I CANNOT LIVE with at the END OF THE DAY…I have no regrets I feel guilty about nothing. I took control of my life and I edited out the people that no longer made me feel good about myself and kept those caring, special friends close.
The funny thing is when you need something you are going to come running back to me and I will be there because I believe people change. But IF you will just go back to being the same selfish person you are and one day when you come running I may be already gone. Giving up a friendship on something so undesirably stupid is like walking through life without even trying to see what it has to offer.